I have been kind of a hot head of a person for many years ,to be honest ever since I can remember. My wife and I have broken out not just over my anger ,there were a number of thing going on. I do not want to talk about that to much..

I have been practicing being assertive with people around me I am finding it kind of scary .I know what I want to happen for myself but I find it hard to ask .It feel like I am doing something wrong ,and fear set in very quickly .I know I must keep doing this even if feel so odd for me to do.

I will tell you a little story. I have hired a lawyer to help me settle my affairs with my ex-wife .I want to buy a house in February 2010 .I feel fear to ask a lawyer one who I am paying 300 per hour if it would be ok for me go threw with house deal. He told me want to do it all at once ,but that will take to long .He will be on holiday to Jan 5 2010.All other people wants and need always come before mine. I hope I make some sense to you all.

What I am trying to say I must try the best I can to let people know How I feel about thing no matter what they will think of me. Plus without hurting other involved